I. The Want That Comes Back at Midnight
It always returns when the world goes quiet—
the want you thought you buried,
the hunger you swore you outgrew.
It doesn’t knock.
It doesn’t whisper.
It rises through your ribs
like smoke from a fire you thought you’d put out.
Midnight has a way of stripping you bare.
It peels away the practiced calm,
the careful composure,
the daylight version of you
that pretends desire is manageable.
In the dark,
everything you’ve tried to forget
breathes again.
You hear him in the silence—
not his voice,
but the memory of it.
The tone he used when he said your name,
low and certain,
as if he already knew
you wouldn’t resist him.
You feel him in the places
you swore were yours alone,
the ones he found
without being told where to look.
This is the echo—
the after-sound of sin.
It’s not the act itself.
It’s the way your body remembers
long after your mind decides it shouldn’t.
The want returns because it never left.
It only learned to wait.
And every time midnight comes,
you understand that desire isn’t something you tame—
it’s something you answer.
